i had always leave things with a leeway for freedom and some space for ambiguity, for growth... nothing in the world is rigid and I have instilled the belief that u cant plan everything under the sun... be it work, study, be it friendship, family or even in relationship, this belief spans across all... and when it comes to human contact, we all need space... somewhere to breathe...
what caused me a second thought then? top 5 reasons:
1) i'm aging like nobody's business... need to move on
2) leaving too much to the unknown gets me the irky feeling
3) my bro's conversation with me 20 mins ago... "what plans you have in your life?"
4) brain cells less worked = getti
ng more bimbotic
5) at a lost now!
it seems that this pure luck thingy is eating into me... there must be a plan, there must be a target, a goal in what i wanna achieve and time is scarce... i know i must hurry but which direction must i head for... which is a prudent choice? "i dunno..." seems the perfect exclamation i will say... once someone told me and forced me to make decision for myself... guess this must be done so as to define who i am even before determining who i want to stay on with or where i want to head for...
how do i do that? must i treat life seriously in order to find myself?
muackalattes dYnelle huang = mugger + worker + lover ;) 
