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needing...
on: Wednesday, October 13, 2010 5:42 PM

its time to exclaim again... probably because i am not working, kinda felt redundant when i wake up at ard 11 am, having no one to talk to, needing to rush some assignments, reluctant to move it.. that i felt terrible... this sort of feelings aint something that i like... having things unfulfilled... 

seems that my social life is funneling to somewhat a reduced state where i highly depend on one or two friends to survive... used to have a pool of fun-loving, cute colleagues whom i terribly missed, gals gatherings on next day or other... to a clinic where i survived on my own with one or two ppl to talk to.... then to a world that i lived on my own... will i end up alone afterall? 

for some, it's a trade-off to the job desired. To others, a focal point for success. often, in real world, we choose to live with many surrounding us, enjoying love and joy shared amongst mankind rather than aiming for the stars... it's really a struggle... success or family? often a large consideration for lady with age catching up like nobody's business... 

my last thoughts were to give up pursuing higher degrees to stay on for someone who i believed worthwhile... eventually i have to progress stages of my life like a normal gal does even (though i may deny the fact sometimes), even i have the passion to mug forever... As it drags on, i am not confident of that anymore... with no promising path, loads of uncertainty... dun wanna regret my life by not speaking and let chances slip through... yet... i am discouraged... i guess, i shall remain unspoken, maybe letting go probably is the best... i really dunno... 

p.s. needing you...